Friday, June 6, 2008

as if praying

I love you as if I'm praying. I wrap all my feelings, all my hopes, all my dreams, in a little package, send it adrift and wish to the stars that it finds its little way. I hope against hope that this is it, the tale the stories of old speak of in their coloured tone and feisty paces. I, like so many others before me, whisper to the wind this yearning.

But I don't know what to whisper, what to desire and what to despair. I've never known love besides the frivolous kind that runs the uninitiated heart over and over. What can you call this love that slowly sets its roots over the barren soil of my life and then begins to grow, ever so carefully, to finally open its blossoms for me, of all people, me.

I admit I truly am naive, to compare what I have now to what I've imagined then. I thought that love is a jittery-feeling a few moments before triumphant jump or perilous fall. I've come to think of love as something to turn the gut and silence the tongue. And yet, what I've found in you is something else entirely. The fire, the burning desire I've romanticized for many a night is, instead, this steadfast flame that warms me with its somber tenacity and comforting glow.

You comfort me. Your sincerest smile, your lightest laugh: I see in them who you are and what you intended, and there I see this overwhelming kindness and an unconscious gentleness a guy like myself could only hope to find.

Stay by my side and I could take the world. Wrap your arms around me, and I'll let it all go--your hands are worth so much more.

So I'll continue praying, and I'll probably never stop.

27 comments:

  1. HUWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAW... ano daw? ahahahah.. =P

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  2. nanindog akong balahibo, dean. good job hehehe

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  3. Orgasmic nga, short and sweet haha. Isa kang pambihirang nilalang!

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  4. Grabe Dean, my cerebellum, parietal and temporal lobe exploded ah. Nosebleed~

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  5. i should read your blog more often to power up my vocabs! haha. nice one. :)

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  6. edaine said: HUWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAW... ano daw? ahahahah.. =P
    second the motion, hahaha.....asteeg, hindi mo man naintindihan laht nang nasulat, nagets ko naman ang gustong iparating.......ichecheck ko pa sa dictionary or kay google ang meaning ng ibang words, hahaha

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  7. gandaganda :)pero totoo talaga to?! kwentuhan mo kami pag nagkita ulit tyo ah hahaha :)

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  8. wahahaha andaming nagliliparang adjective at adverbs at nouns n nde gnagnamit ng napakaraming tao!!!...ang weird pero ang first thought ko eh eto yung reason kung bakit i need to force my students to write and write...ahahahaha

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  9. windracer said: naks naman, inlababo.
    haha, tae. imiinom ako nung nabasa ko toh. mejo lumabas lang sa ilong un tubig. haha, inlababo amp! haha, oo na, mababaw..make the best out of it dani!! =D

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  10. whoah. lupet dani. naks naman, inlababo. good luck sa inyo! ^^

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  11. edaine said: HUWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAW... ano daw?
    haha, i know XD sulat-puyat is what I call it, hahaha!

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  12. yapabigail said: nanindog akong balahibo
    haha, ako din nung sinusulat ko to e. thanks for reading ^_^

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  13. vtachi said: Orgasmic nga
    bwahaha! viagra, move over! pero , grabe sobra ka naman ^_^ salamat!

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  14. aww ang ganda dani parang gsto ko tuloy gumawa ng love letter. pero mababaw lng. unlike yours, ung akin parang "i love you xoxo" hahahahaha) awwwww....sna nga yan na un dani, baka matigil na ang iyong pagkaheartbreaker? haha. kwento kwento!!! :D

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  15. fapri said: haha, tae. imiinom ako nung nabasa ko toh. mejo lumabas lang sa ilong un tubig. haha, inlababo amp! haha, oo na, mababaw..make the best out of it dani!! =D
    kesa naman nasa bathtub! :D

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  16. nuneeoww said: kwento kwento!
    kaya kelangan na tayong magkita ^_^

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  17. eeewi said: aww ang ganda dani parang gsto ko tuloy gumawa ng love letter.
    sinulat ko to the night after ko manood lang ng sex and the city... letters are a lost art na gusto ko simulan uli, kaso anlayo gn post office >_>

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  18. pigeonholeprinciple said: i should read your blog more often to power up my vocabs!
    haha, i know, i know XDanyways, if I add a few kanji here and there, BAM! reader count = zero!

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  19. jasca said: ichecheck ko pa sa dictionary or kay google ang meaning ng ibang words, hahaha
    pasensya na ^_^ nag-iisip na ko ng paraan para solusyunan yan!

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  20. liyandaw said: pero totoo talaga to?! kwentuhan mo kami pag nagkita ulit tyo ah hahaha :)
    opo ^_^ usapang beer ito!

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  21. lunakit said: i need to force my students to write and write...ahahahaha
    pwede ring read and read ^_^

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  22. fapri said: make the best out of it dani!! =D
    or pwede ring: "make the best out of it dani!! =D"

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  23. windracer said: naks naman, inlababo
    hahaha! anla(ba)booo!

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  24. Once again.. Dumugo ang aking ilong. Hindi lang yata ilong. lahat ng pwedeng labasan ng dugo. haha! Pero ang ganda ha.. :)

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  25. Wow. I'm happy to hear it! I'm so excited for you in ways that I can't even begin to describe.In other news: Lost my phone. I'd love to talk to you again sometime but you know how things are.

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