wow, its been awhile, nothin' like great weather and bonding with old friends to rekindle that "i wanna do something worth doing" spirit.

although posting personal rants on some site isnt really nobel prize material, i kinda miss this (hopefully) long talks with myself. i probably got the whole college thing to blame for not having any space left in my brain to contemplate life and shit. sad to say, most of where you'd normally find the philosophical stuff in my head has been replaced by the everyday matters of college "to do's".

ah well, thats life, you just cant help but be swept up by all the things thats happening in the present. and not just the things, but also the duties, responsibilities and promises we like to give but usually find so hard to keep.

now thats funny, i use "we" in the previoes statement when actually its probably just me finding it hard to fulfill promises. i guess my priorities are screwed up, now that im on a "live by the day" frame of mind.

i just feel so dead, i keep doing stuff out of need, not want. it drains you, when you get out of bed just for the sake of being able to do something else. i just wanna do something meaningful, and sadly i havent been getting much of that these last few months.

~sigh~, well heres hopin things will start lookin up soon... ... ... i need a vice XD